46. Why I Push Friends Away Even When I Care About Them | Fearful Avoidant Attachment Style

In this week's reflection episode, I discuss the reality of having a fearful-avoidant (disorganized) attachment style in friendships. I share my own experience and unpack the reason why I am stable/anxious romantically, but anxious/avoidant platonically. This episode is about facing the painful parts of ourselves so we can grow into better friends and better people.This episode is more of a story than a structured explanation. As I talk through the experience, the deeper context and realizations unfold naturally along the way.🌙 In this episode, I share:What fearful-avoidant (disorganized) attachment looks like in friendshipsWhy I pushed friends away even when I cared about them deeplyThe shame of realizing I hurt someone I lovedQuestioning my sexuality because of emotional confusion in friendshipsFeeling misunderstood and carrying silent emotional painSelf-sabotage, guilt, and learning how to forgive myself🎵 Playlist for this episode:https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6QOSyqaqeELiWF6dY87ULP?si=SOyBng1dTRGl7eHjOoVBhw📓 Journal prompts of the week:What feels different about romantic closeness vs platonic closeness?What story do I carry about friendships?📝 In-Depth Breakdown of this Episode:https://www.notion.so/31bfbd79ed63804ea580e3f39b42efc6?source=copy_link✍️ My Poetry & Reflections Notion Page:https://www.notion.so/Morgan-Sneed-Poetry-Reflections-294fbd79ed638009bf42dc1cddabf4fd?source=copy_link🌐 My Socials:Personal Instagram: @morgzworlddPodcast Instagram: @youatyourbestpodcastPersonal TikTok: @morgzworldddPodcast Tiktok: @you.at.you.bestAll my links in one place: https://linktr.ee/morgzworld🎙 Want to start your own podcast?I host with RSS and love how easy it is to use.Start your podcast here: https://rss.com/?via=4df2a8If you sign up through this link, it helps support the show!💌 Want to contact me directly?Email me: youatyourbestpodcast@gmail.comNeed Advice? Ask Here: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSe6iJJ9_9gDFqmxUMNMMYgnA0Sj_J9VkZEU8iQSsZlFUbufwQ/viewform?usp=sharing&ouid=105432312361727196839🎵 Intro & Outro Music: “Midnight Bliss” by MoaviiCreative Commons — Attribution 3.0 Unported — CC BY 3.0Music promoted by Copyright Free Music - Background Music For Videos 👉 / @podcastbackgroundmusic