We Had the Best Week Together, Then I Got the Call He Was Dead

A few days before 16-year-old Landon took his own life, he spent what felt like one of the best weeks of his life with his cousin, Landon Ashworth.They ate way too much sushi, played golf, shot guns, laughed, talked about life, and dreamed about the future. When the week ended, Landon told him how much he needed it. He seemed happy. He seemed okay.Then came the phone call that changed everything.I sit down with filmmaker, actor, writer, and creator Landon Ashworth for an incredibly raw conversation about suicide, autism, grief, survivor’s guilt, and the things we sometimes don't see until it's too late.In this episode:Losing his 16-year-old cousin Landon to suicideThe warning signs he wishes he had recognized soonerGrowing up autistic, masking, bullying, and feeling misunderstoodThe survivor’s guilt he still carries after Landon’s deathTurning grief into his deeply personal film Go OnLandon opens up about experiencing suicidal thoughts himself and why he now isn’t afraid to directly ask someone if they’re thinking about taking their own life.We also talk about the painful reality of trying to help someone find their way out of the darkness, why emotional pain can feel impossible to escape, and the importance of finding something worth holding onto.This conversation is heavy. But more than anything, it’s about choosing to keep going.Key Moments:00:00 The week before everything changed03:03 When Landon’s future fell apart06:25 The week that made him feel okay again10:02 The phone call no one expected13:43 The guilt of missing the signs17:02 The suicide warning signs he missed20:23 The reality of masking autism24:00 Why other people’s opinions mean nothing29:39 What an autistic brain can feel like34:29 The Hollywood advice Landon couldn’t accept38:00 Why vulnerable people started finding him41:37 Turning Landon’s suicide into Go On45:01 Finding a reason to stay alive48:02 How to get out of emotional hellConnect with Me:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/Connect with Landon Ashworth:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/landonashworthdirects/#SuicidePrevention #AutismAwareness #SurvivorsGuilt