I Couldn't Even Manage a Fishbowl - AA Speaker - Jerry J.

Jerry thought he managed his law practice, his family, and his drinking. In AA, an aquarium full of fish that refused to follow his rules helped him see what he had been missing. ☀️ Sober Sunrise App Listen to Sober Sunrise AA speaker talks anytime, track your sober time, take a daily pledge, and keep recovery support close throughout the day. 📱 https://sober-sunrise.com/app If you enjoy the app or find it useful in your recovery, a quick rating or review on the App Store would mean a lot and helps more people find Sober Sunrise. ☀️ Sober Sunrise Episode Archive Hundreds of AA speaker tapes and recovery stories: https://sober-sunrise.com/episodes 🧡 Sober Sunrise Merch https://sober-sunrise.com/merch 🌴 Sober Sunrise Newsletter https://sober-sunrise.com/newsletter Jerry got sober on January 1, 1973, after spending a year and a half secretly trying to pass his own controlled-drinking test. He had a successful Dallas law practice, a wife and children, a comfortable home, and money in the bank, yet nothing seemed to mean anything anymore. Alcohol had become a vacation from responsibility that he could no longer end when he wanted. His wife's involvement in Al-Anon threatened the control he thought he had, until her suggestion to try limiting his drinks forced him to confront a test he never passed. After another lost New Year's Eve, he decided to quit, refused help, threw the recovery books against the wall, and discovered that not drinking left him shaking, sleepless, and thinking about alcohol constantly. A tentative prayer and a call to AA's central office led him toward help, although he first wanted a meeting full of college graduates near a country club. He eventually found a group above a 7-Eleven, parked in the alley, and climbed the fire escape to keep his attendance discreet. There, laughter, sponsorship, the Big Book, the Twelve Steps, and small acts of service began changing how he saw himself. Jerry illustrates the mental obsession with a bulldog that repeatedly returns to a hog it cannot handle, then recognizes his own self-centeredness in an aquarium whose fish refuse to follow his plans. The deeper evidence of recovery comes through his mother's illness: while drinking, he fled into alcohol; five years sober, he could stay present, support his family, and face grief without wanting a drink. Speaking on freedom through action, Jerry connects surrender, inventory, amends, and working with newcomers to a life with purpose, trust, and room to be himself. Jerry J. from Dallas, TX speaking at the Rocky Point Roundup in Puerto Peñasco, Mexico - October 13th 2000 Music: Deep by KaizanBlu