If We Have the Will

When it comes to physicality, Hashem helps us every step of the way from beginning to end. At times, He will even give a person a drive to make a hishtadlut to, let's say, earn money or accomplish something else in the physical realms that He wants him to accomplish. But, when it comes to spirituality, that is where we must develop the will to achieve on our own and we must attempt to make the efforts to accomplish on our own. Only after that will Hashem give us His help in bringing our efforts success. Rabbenu Yonah writes in the Shaarei Teshuva that if a person has a true desire to come closer to Hashem, and he wants to accomplish mitzvot that are not in his capabilities of accomplishing, Hashem will give him abilities that he did not possess before. Our job is to produce the strong desire and do what's in our power and Hashem does the rest. Even when it comes to the performance of one mitvah, if we want to accomplish it, but we're not capable of doing it, we can still get Heavenly help from Hashem to succeed with it. A man from Israel told a personal story which took place about 30 years ago. He had some work done in his house and after it was finished, he still owed the carpenter a few hundred shekel. Many years had passed and he had forgotten about that debt and the carpenter never came back to pick up the money. He was at a class and the Rabbi was speaking about the gravity of not paying people what we owe. The man immediately remembered this debt and after the class asked the Rabbi if he could donate the sum that he owed the carpenter to tzedaka, being that he didn't even remember his name. The Rabbi told him he needed to track the person down and pay him directly. The man was in agony, realizing this was nearly impossible. He cried to Hashem to help him pay that debt back. The very same night, when he got home from shul, his wife had done some cleaning and asked him if she could throw out some old papers. He looked at the papers and, amazingly, one of them had the name and number of that carpenter and, baruch Hashem, he contacted him and paid him back. He had a true desire to do that mitzvah and Hashem gave him the siyata d'Shamaya to accomplish it. A woman, who we'll call Sara, told me a story which also took place about 30 years ago. When she was in 11th and 12th grade, she took upon herself a weekly chesed job. A little boy named Ari Yossi who had special needs had a therapy session every Tuesday but his mother did not drive. This girl picked up that boy every Tuesday at 5:00 for his appointment and she would then wait there until it was finished and then drive him back home. She did this for close to two years, never missing a week, knowing how important it was and how much that mother needed this help. At the end of their school year, the girls had a different schedule for finals. They would just go to school for the tests and then go back home to study. Sarah was at her friend Devora's house studying one day and they received a call that the elderly woman they visit in the local nursery home was in the hospital. Two of her friends were already there and asked if they wanted to come visit. Of course they said yes and Sarah drove her car for 20 minutes to the hospital. They spent some time there with the elderly woman and then Sarah drove all of her friends home. One of those friends lived on the same block as Ari Yossi, the little boy she picked up every Tuesday. As she was driving past his house, she saw the mother and little boy coming out of the house towards the street. She waved and kept driving, noticing that the mother looked a little confused. That's when it hit her, she looked at the car clock and saw it was exactly 5:00 and it was Tuesday. She had totally forgotten about the appointment, being that her schedule changed. What were the odds that she would be passing that house at that exact time she was meant to pick them up? This friend who lived on the same block at Ari Yossi was one of those people who were already in the hospital who called her to come. That was Hashem, orchestrating the events to work out perfectly. This was before people had cell phones. If she didn't take Ari to that appointment, he would have missed a much needed therapy session and of course the mother would have been stressed, waiting for her to come with no way of reaching her. Sarah was very careful to do that mitzvah every week with joy, the one time she was thrown off schedule, Hashem brought her there to do the mitzvah right on time. If we have the will and we make the effort, Hashem will take us the rest of the way.