30. YHZ Resilience-Pt. 2 — Giving Grace

In this second chapter of the YHZ Resilience flight, Halifax host Andrew guides Steven and James through a raw discussion on the complex intersection of trauma, shame, and recovery. James opens up about how a strict religious upbringing led him to repress childhood abuse, and later, how chemsex became a way to enact a self-fulfilling prophecy of being "reduced to just a sex object". Steven explains how relapsing can feel doubly shameful when paired with experiences of sexual assault that occur during use, making it easier to "sweep under the rug" rather than face judgment.  The conversation shifts to the limitations of current support systems, critiquing traditional recovery models for their rigidity and lack of space to discuss sexual trauma openly. James describes finding solace in an Anonymous group initially but ultimately stepping away, finding more empowerment in personal accountability and therapy. Steven dreams of a recovery space specifically informed about chemsex.  The episode concludes with a powerful reflection on self-compassion, advising listeners to replace shame with curiosity.  If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services.    🔗 Other Resources Mentioned  Centre for Addiction and Mental Health (CAMH)  Direction 180 : non-profit community-based opioid treatment program located in Halifax, Nova Scotia.