The Dark Side of My Mormon Mission | How Obedience Nearly Broke Me

From 2009 to 2011, Kayden served as a Mormon missionary in Russia, believing that strict obedience was the path to heaven. Fifteen years later, after leaving the Church, he reflects on how that experience shaped his faith, sense of self, and relationships with his family.In this video, Kayden shares the pressures, doubts, and struggles he faced while trying to follow the rules, and how the pursuit of “heaven” caused him to lose himself—and how he eventually found his way back.Original video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Im4p0jjYGxw#ExMormon #MissionaryExperience #FaithDeconstruction #LeavingTheChurch #MentalHealthPlease consider making a donation by joining our Patreon https://www.patreon.com/MormonNewsRoundup Email: kolob@mormonnewsroundup.org Website: https://mormonnewsroundup.org/ TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mormonnewsroundup Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mormon_news_roundup/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100093511869924 X: https://twitter.com/NewsMormon New episodes LIVE every Sunday and Monday nights at 9:30PM ESTPlease like and subscribe and hit the notifications bell. Remember remember, no unhallowed hand can stop this podcast from progressing!The Mormon News Roundup is NOT affilated with the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.