The Shape of the Space I Did Not Know I Needed

What happens when you leave space for yourself? You don’t do it in just one day that you cross off the calendar and cancel your appointments, so you decide to go out for a walk and keep walking the whole day without caring about the things that you’re leaving behind. No. I mean something more profound than that. What happens if you take time and space for that part of yourself that didn’t even know it needed that space? It needed that time. What happens? Something marvelous happens.It feels like the space was there when I stopped rushing for my phone so I could check on people I care about, sending them things. I was not engaged with that anymore; I decided to disengage completely from my caring side to see what would happen to Monika when she’s not holding space for others and allows her own space to speak.Over the last year, this happened to me, and I was finally integrating it, and it’s such a beautiful feeling that I’m at a loss for words, although I need those words because I’m finally putting together the whole process that went from me walking and talking to myself, realizing I had a structure that I wanted to follow. Then I allowed that structure to form a kind of spine, and as that spine was forming, it was allowing, breathing, and shaping itself, slowly receiving the flow that needed to create the space. From occupation, to beautiful self-caring silence.Today is April 8th, one year since Bitcoin’s price touched the bottom after the previous all-time high in December 2024. It gave a different tension to the chart, and I’m in a deep realization and a state of wonderment. What happened in these 365 days?A year ago I was tracking Venus retrograde not just my personal chart but also financially, and I noticed something that W.D. Gann also worked with when he brought mathematics and astrology into financial graphs. From there, price moved again toward the all-time high until October 2025. This is what led me to start seriously looking at financial charts, harmonics, and monitoring the wavelength as a way to also track my nervous system. I know it sounds crazy, but that’s what it is.I am enjoying the contrast the outside reflects with the inside, I am not a psycho, as I have really focused more on all my infinite possibilities. Someone who has inspired me in the last year is Professor Edward Frenkel. I’m dropping below his latest video, “Math Gives Us Hope for the Future”. Every time I listen to him and hear his soft voice with his beautiful Russian accent and his sparkling eyes, he just looks like a little boy in the playground when he speaks about mathematics. It gives me so much hope. It moves me.This week, if you want it, brings lightness while the heaviness outside makes no sense, one bluff after the next, nothing feels real… but I am counter offering the idea of becoming light as a feather. There’s also light, hope, a different quality of life. It’s there for you all. All you have to do is align to that frequency and start embodying it.One of the most inspiring, beautiful things in this video, Frenkel says, “the fact that we all perceive mathematics in the same way means that our minds are connected and so we’re all connected to each other”.I want to say to Professor Edward Frenkel that I did not do well in school with mathematics, maybe because I could not find a point of entry and it led me to close myself to it. I was trying to understand them from my logical side, but I couldn’t tap into them. I failed them every year, even though my mind operates in patterns, the way I was taught just didn’t compute.I’ve been using mathematics in the last ten years pretty much every day when I practice astrology. If you see, the first part of the word is the stars part, and the logos is the part where it makes sense. Astrology is based on numbers, based on the positions of the stars in the sky, and the relationships between them. We have to use mathematics, geometry, and harmonics to understand these relationships that validate themselves with the cycles of these celestial bodies, which is what we call astronomy.Guess what these four form? the QUADRIVIUM, the four ways, defined as the four mathematical sciences: Arithmetic (number in itself), Geometry (number in space), Music (number in time), and Astronomy (number in space and time). These subjects were considered to be the preparatory study for philosophy and theology, and later in medieval universities as a way to understand the created order, as scholars believed the universe was constructed according to geometric and harmonic principles.Of course, there’s another layer that comes from what Jung called the unconscious and the archetypal forms that have been attached to these relationships and phases.The interesting thing for me is that I learned about mathematics through harmonics and through geometry, and I have such a profound love