IT IS AN OFFERING, NOT A SACRIFICE

Do you know the difference between a sacrifice and an offering?I think we have gone a little bit cuckoo with the word sacrifice. You know, in essence, it comes from the word sacred, but it has been devoid of an important part of that sacredness that is transformational. Therefore it is lacking in full meaning.Sacrifice is the action of consecrating. So what is it that one is consecrating without using a transformational part that has disappeared in the meaning of it? Now it reads as something you have to give up. And when you have that energy of giving up, you tend to hold on more to it.I tune more to the word offering. I have this image of a Buddhist altar or even a Christian altar, and you light a candle. You offer something. You decide to become aware of what is at stake in the relationship of what you are looking at, that you are willing to extend, you are willing to care, to bring and carry forward. It is a relationship to something bigger.So letting go is the dissolution of it, is the dissolving, is the surrendering to a new relation to yourself in those matters that comes from understanding that what you offer transforms into this new realm.I am offering myself time as a wave that determines clarity when it has completed its function. It is not time like Kronos. It is more time like Kairos. It is the right timing so I can gain clarity. I am also offering myself space. Not a place, but leeway, in my body, my mind, a space within my emotional vessel. It is a territory I never gave myself because I felt the urgency to always be there for others.I am not being pulled by anyone or anything at the moment. This time and space that I am offering are very balanced, slowly being absorbed. They are not judgmental. They possess no urgency. They are just there contracting and expanding.I have been very interested in fascia work. Fascia is what holds the water in the body, and it requires some tweaking in the neck and the pelvic floor. And so this adjusting, this flow of movement is rotational. It is like the earth. We rotate around the sun. We rotate around the galaxy where we also self rotate. And we have pretty much a binary body where we have almost two of everything, with some exceptions, like the liver. The liver is the organ that detoxifies. It is also the one carrying anger. And I wonder if I have been carrying a lot of anger as a Manifestor/Initiator that needs to be expressed in a way that it does not break, but it actually informs my field of where I am not willing to do a so called sacrifice, but where I am willing to offer space for my own unfolding. From the TCM perspective, anger is the energy of the liver, not necessarily the organ per se, but the energy of that circuitry. And in my case, it is about understanding that that anger as an emotion has the potential for evolution. If I understand its frequency as something that is driving me to move into another direction, breaking away the stagnation. Now it could be sensed as an activated reaction, or can it be initiating an awareness as a response? So that is where timing comes in. Whereas space and time expand, contract, and calibration can take place.Fascia operates through what is called tensegrity, a word coined by Buckminster Fuller from tension and integrity. It is a structural principle that the body maintains its form not through rigid compression like a building, but through a continuous balance of tension and resistance distributed across the entire fascial network. Both the flexibility of the geometry that tensegrity brings and the crystallization of water live inside this structure, because it is a matrix inside our body that carries an emotional archive. The mechanics operate through a closed kinematic chain, mechanical loops where each part influences the position, the motion, and the stability of all the others. Kinematics is geometry in motion. The molecules of water get absorbed and at the same time dry out because there is no mobility, there is no circulation, and this membrane stops resonating with the rest of the body. And it is in that dryness, where there is no circulation, that the body keeps the score of trauma in its geometry.This is a big question for me in these days, because I am questioning those parts of myself that need to go because they do not offer me any potential for evolution. They have served their purpose. They have emanated. They have transformed themselves. They have metabolized.And so I am questioning my sense of value at all levels. The places where I trust blindly, the places where I mistrust behind me. The places where I could be completely wrong.There are two words I bring right now: control and definition. How can you support and define something without having to be controlling, but be on top of it, which is different. How to create a fluid, flowing state of circu