
Matthew spent six years in the Navy as a Search and Rescue swimmer. Then fifteen years as a cop — Virginia Beach, then undercover narcotics in New Hampshire during the opioid epidemic. He worked under a different name for years. He wrote a book, The Journey to Midnight, about the night he planned to kill himself. Now he talks to cops and veterans about it. This one covers why suicide is so high in law enforcement and the military. Trauma stacks up and you never get the time to process it. The "unfit for duty" label that ends careers, so nobody asks for help. A fatal wreck on Route 101. A man who shot himself three feet away. A two-and-a-half-year-old, a blind cord, and thirty seconds in a car that Matt still hasn't let go of. His chief checked on him one day, then went home and killed himself two hours later. What he did with that is most of this conversation. The Journey to Midnight: https://a.co/d/03SCujlF Join the Cleared Hot Newsletter here: https://www.clearedhotpodcast.com Today's Sponsors: Montana Knife Company: https:www.montanaknifecompany.com Betterhelp: https://www.betterhelp.com/clearedhot
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